The Diary of a Nihilist

What is this place

Hello, and welcome. What is this? What purpose does it serve?

Not long ago, I discovered an old journal from my childhood. I started recording my thoughts and feelings at a very young age (about 6 or 7) and was consistent in doing so all the way up through my mid twenties. After that it became pretty sporatic, only once in a while. Here, I will begin unpacking those entries. Pulling apart the things that happened to me as a child, and examining in retrospect what I remember and feel about those incidents. I want to understand myself better, and this artifact, this journal, is a window in time that may help me do just that. If you’re here, reading this, then I thank you for giving me a chance to learn and grow and change into a better person.

All entries are completely unedited except for the names of people. I am changing them in order to protect other people’s identity.

My name is Patrick Anthony

And this blog is me making an attempt to better understand myself. Much of what you will find here is very personal and very embarrassing for me, but it is my belief that examining these things in a public way will help me face things that I wanted to leave covered up. It is my hope that my journey may help others reflect inwardly and gain some new understanding of themselves.
Patrick Anthony

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